Once I had a spontaneous past life vision! I never had spontaneous visions before or after*. So it shocked me, too.

The vision happened in Egypt, at the Seti temple, located in a town called Abydos. Seti is considered a very powerful temple in Egypt, not in the least because it has the Osirion.

I did not want to go to Abydos (the little did I know!), because it would have taken three days out of my work. But my former boss' wife Isabelle wanted me to go with, and my former boss loved his wife. Very much. Voila. Off to Abydos I went.

Abydos was a tiny rural town in the desert, about three hours driving from the Nile. A village, practically. Small kids ran around yelling "hello" and "bakshis", which means tips in Arabic. The locals were dressed very conservatively, all covered, despite the heat. We were three women and one man. We've covered ourselves head to toe and had scarves to cover our heads. Our male friend was covered too, mainly against the strong desert sun.

As we approached the temple, some teenagers on a motorcycle yelled "pretty body" at me. Or so our guide said. I'd missed it. They smiled and waved until their bike disappeared from our view. Three men of unidentifiable age with thick mustaches reluctantly greeted us by the ticket office. They were busy drinking tea and chatting.

The heat was real. We were drenched in sweat by the time we reached the temple, we walked probably a third of a mile. Inside however it was cool and fresh. Also the temple architecture maximized the natural light, so it did not really need artificial lighting.

I started to feel weird the moment I stepped foot on the temple's territory. At first I felt like I was walking deep under water. Every step took an effort. Everything was as if in slow motion. The feeling was similar to tripping. I even wondered if I was hung over… Nope, I had been sober.

Shortly after we entered the temple our guide showed us a carving on the wall: hieroglyphics that listed all pharaoh dynasties. It fascinated me. When I looked at it suddenly I had a vision of a violent scene. I saw people around me being butchered. It was so vivid that I must've started crying and sobbing out loud. The guide helped me sit down under one of the columns and covered me with blankets. My body was shaking.

The vision continued. I realized that it's not just the brutality of the scene that made it so emotional for me. I realized that I was witnessing "my family" being murdered: "my little brothers and sisters, my mother and my father, the servants" - everybody. I saw it like a movie on the movie screen but as if I were in the movie too.

Next I saw "myself" arguing with "my father". I saw myself as a teenage girl. "My father" was a Pharaoh. I was a princess. The argument was about my love life. My father was stern but composed. "I", on the other hand, was beyond myself. "Why can't I fall in love, like any normal person?!", I heard myself yelling at him. He calmly responded: "you're not just a person. You're a symbol. You have a mission to serve. You cannot fall in love with just anybody you want. You have to remember your duties."

At that moment "I" felt so pissed off and angry. "I" felt like the world was so unjust, the life unfair. "I" felt deprived of the pleasures that regular people enjoyed: fall in love, and follow their hearts. "I" hated being a symbol. The argument was finished, but "I" did not hear my father. "I" refused a prospect of a loveless life.

The next scene I saw was that "I" started seeing the object of my love in secret. "I" started letting him into my side of the palace. This guy was a general in "my father's" army. He was not of noble blood. He was very ambitious and he was a great warrior. He made this stellar career in my father's army and became a general, but there was absolutely no way that he could have received Pharaoh's blessing to marry his daughter.

One fateful night he came on a date with his army, used the open entrance to force their way in and butcher everybody. The devastation I felt was indescribable. I felt so miserable. I was still sitting under the column shaking. When I understood what "I" [i.e. the princess] had done I felt so much remorse that it became clear to me why I [the real me] had carried so much unexplainable disdain for myself. I felt infinitely sorry that I did not listen to "my father". I felt devastated to have brought about the death of everybody I loved, and the worst part of all, the end of our dynasty. It was built and lasted for hundreds of years to be ended by a whim of a rebellious teenager.

Interestingly enough, right before the trip to Abydos I had a situation at work, which prompted a question: why am I so harsh to myself? It was an incident with a colleague. I had been harsh to her without having noticed it until my boss brought it to my attention. I was caught by surprise because I thought I was helping by pushing her. The harshness I gave her was a fraction of how I usually pushed myself. I thought I'd been nice! When I reflected on the situation, I asked myself: "if this felt harsh to people, then how do I treat myself? How hard am I on myself, really?" The answer came with the vision: "very".

I felt eternal shame and guilt. What I could not forgive "myself" [the princess] was that the tragedy seemed entirely avoidable, had "I" taken my duties seriously, understood my role, and listened to "my father".

At that point I must have been crying on the floor of the temple for maybe 40 minutes, I had lost the track of time.

The ending of the vision was that "I" [the princess] killed myself, because the general's plan was to marry "me" to legitimize his reign. My suicide was a bit of an execution. "I" executed myself for my "crimes": "I did not deserve power. I did not deserve to be the symbol. I did not deserve love. I did not deserve compassion."

This feeling resonated with me [the real me] deeply. I truly felt like I did not deserve compassion. Now I saw why. My entire life I had been hard on myself. Dragged myself through the mud to every accomplishment, through the heartbreaks, through setbacks. I had always been so very hard on myself and I did not know how to become nicer to myself. No matter how much I trained myself. I was much nicer to other people. Jumping forward, I was able to start working on forgiving myself and becoming kinder to myself. It took a while, but I think I'm getting there.

When I "came back" the guide was patiently waiting. Then, the most intriguing thing happened. I told her an abbreviated version of the vision. The part where "my family" died because of "me". She said "oh yes I see it [the life]" (she was an energy healer). I did brush that remark off. I heard those kind of remarks from people. Every time I assumed they were making it up. This time though was different.

The guide, her name was Claire, told me: "dear, don't worry about it, it was not you fault. You did nothing wrong. You just fell in love!". But wait a second, I did not tell her that part! How did she know?? I left that part out, because I felt ashamed that the bloody scene I was so shaken by was a "date gone wrong". But she knew it!! How??

I still don't know... Claire, will you reveal your secret?

Thanks for making me go, Isabelle. You are my guiding light!

* all other visions I had were induced through a regression session.

My dear Elena what a beautiful and honest story you shared. I remember all those days.

How did i know ? I sensed the energy, images and emotions inside and around you from my heart. This is my gift.

But anybody can do this when we would open our heart more.

Especially now we are moving more and more into a multidimensional state of being we are all getting more and more sensitive and traveling ..and healing ..in many different timelines.

You know the temple of Abydos is especially created for healing not for prayer.

It's energy is like a mirror and brings out anything that is still in the 'dark' ...it will come to the surface to be healed.

Many times i witnessed this. It is a powerful stargate to other dimensions.
It's a blessing to be able to guide people in their process in my beloved Egypt.

Ancient Khemet is the beginning and the end of our light workers souls journey.
The divine feminine wisdom and healing energy 'Isis' ..is waking up now!
Through our own cleaning and healing processes.

Like you remembered and healed a blueprint of guilt in your soul, and by this you set free the softness and wisdom of your heart, and the love for yourself again.
Abydos it's the most deep healing place and highest vibrating place on earth I know.

Thank you for sharing my Egyptian sister ;-)